Amazing...

It's amazing to step outside and just be amazed by God's creations. Going to St. Augustine, it was amazing to see the Mission Nombre de Dios and walk through the cemetery. To just see how religion affects other people... Looking out at the water...seeing the beautiful sky. Then, to sit down and to think that God controls and leads us in every aspect of our life leaves me in awe. I am learning to love God more and more this summer and to appreciate what Jesus Christ has done for us. As I continue to read the Bible and books on religion, I just want to learn more and more.

There is so much I want to do to give to others. I have much more than I need while some have nothing, and that makes me feel like...I'm not doing the right thing. In our love for God and Jesus, we should be ready to give up everything...but I am not in that point in life...which makes me feel guilty. I still have worries, which shouldn't be the case if I truly believed that God knew all and would lead me in the right direction. So much more to learn...to have faith in.

Anyway, I think the thing I love the most is that feeling that I'm not alone anymore, for God is always with me. But also, my friends have been so supportive. I am so grateful for how I've been led to such people in my life. The feeling of being able to talk about anything and the feeling of complete trust...so hard to find sometimes. I have not been this...happy (?) in awhile.

On the sad side, I hate being confused. As I am today...haha.